mmm..
altho i haven been posting, i've been reading..
and i notice tt almost every post carries e same theme.

"i miss u guys".
"i love u guys".
"lets go out together".
"we MUS meet one day".

all these words really sadden me cos somehow, i noe they wun come true.
well, i'm not being a pessimist or a 'spoiler' but..
i feel tt these are jus "talk but no action".
hey, relax.. i'm not angry or being critical, its jus tt somehow i'm being practical.
when are we actually willing to take time out of our busy schedules to meet one another?
poly ppl haf sch. jc ppl are getting frantic bcos they haven completed their hw n haven done any revision n e holidays are coming to a close. (heh!)
moreover, after all e times we had together, there are still internal conflicts among us.
u noe it, i noe it, we all noe it.
altho we all say tt we will not forget each other n tt we will always remain good buddies, how do we noe they're really true?

e harsh realities of life has taught me hard. life has taught me to let go n not look back.
i've decided not to look back at my secondary sch life anymore.
not tt i'm gonna erase all e memories from it, but i'm not gonna cling on to it.
cos my sec sch life was a total mess n i feel uncomfortable looking back.
i jus don like it. i don fit into e culture la.
i don even blend in wif u guys.
i don even wanna step into e gates of jss anymore.
no more gg back on teachers' day, chinese new yr, even camps..
i jus wan to move on..

aiya..
i don hate my sec sch life cos it has really taught me A LOT. a lot a lot.
i wouldn't be who i am today if not for jss.
n of cos, i won't forget e ppl there. esp my teachers, my class n my dear choir exco.

n wad are u all waiting for??
still don wan to go out!
prove me wrong la.
i suggest u all don do smth tt doesn't involve cost..
like perhaps go orchard during xmas..
carry light sticks, wear xmas hats, make donations, admire e lights, take crazy photos..
*winks*

-luv, marj